I'm back yet again. I've had a look through my archives and found that I haven't been my current weight in 12 years! That is, I'm now 167.1 lbs (or 75.8 kgs). Feels bloody good, I tell you. I went up a couple of years ago to my highest ever weight (yes, even higher than the last time I recorded my highest ever fucking weight) of ~113 kgs (250 lbs). Then a couple of things happened: the first light bulb was my cousin getting married. Well not that, but my sister and I were invited to her wedding in November 2015 (last year) so the year before that I decided I didn't want to be a fat cousin next to my cousins who, on that side of the family, are all slim and pretty. So I set about losing weight and in that year I lost 28 kgs (61 lbs). So I was still fat, but didn't feel as fat next to my cousins.

The next and most important thing that happened was my sister was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. For ages she was complaining of pain in her abdomen and couldn't eat because she didn't have an appetite. When she was FINALLY diagnosed she had to have a hysterectomy and chemo, etc. After the hysterectomy; however she had a huge scar (of course) but because of her weight, it wouldn't heal. It didn't heal for months. When I helped her dress the scar and saw how horrible the damn thing was I just couldn't help but think "I don't want to be like this if / when I have to have surgery". Apparently this cancer is genetic and I have a very good chance of developing it (if cancer from smoking doesn't get me first, of course) and if I do, I don't want to take months healing from it.

My sister is in remission. She had her bloods done last week and they came back really good (10 and 13 which is apparently very good).

So I have now lost 36 kgs (80 lbs). I'm determined not to put it back on again. Now I have a good knowledge of CICO (calories in < calories out) and a stable job and life, I know I can keep it off and I will.

On a side note, we have exactly one day of sunshine this week on Thursday. The rest will be miserable, raining and windy. I don't understand why I can't quit smoking considering the shit storm I have to face every time I go outside. I think I'm going to use quitting smoking as a New Years Resolution. This will be the ... 10th year, at least, in a row that I've made that vow :)

7:16 p.m. - 2016-10-04