Sorry, but this computer is just too fucking slow. I mean, I know I wasn't going to get a top of the line thing for just under $500 but still, I thought just using the bloody internet wouldn't lag the fucking thing to where I think I'm back on dial-up in the 90s. The sooner I get mum's desktop up & running, the sooner I can give this piece of shit to my nephew and be done with it. I actually updated this a while ago but because the internet is so slow on this thing, it ate my post and I couldn't be bothered typing it again.

So obviously things have changed since the last time I posted. I moved out with my sister to the Eastern suburbs which was weird. We've been 'Westies' for over 20 years. The only time before work moved I'd stepped foot in the Eastern suburbs was when I got hopelessly lost trying to drive home from the city & took the highway to the East instead of the West. I'm not sure if I wrote about that experience, but I was lost in that place for about 3 hours driving in circles. I hate driving in the city. On the bright side, I now live about 10 minutes away from work as opposed to 1.5 hours away.

To be honest, about the only thing that has changed is where we live. I moved in with my sister who still breathes like an asthmatic elephant. She said the other day that she thinks I (and mum) might be right about our theory of her having sleep apnoea. Do you think she took my suggestion of maybe seeing a doctor, getting a referral to a sleeping clinic for advice so maybe she doesn't die in the night seriously? Ha. I got the usual distracted 'yeah ...' and yeah, I knew it was a lost cause. I don't even bother anymore.

On a less bitchy note, it has been 7 days since I last smoked! I've quit, hopefully for good. I just got fed up with them running my life. I could barely function unless I knew I had a pack of cigs. Then there was the constant feeling like I was getting dirty looks from people. Even in my backyard I felt like the neighbours were going to start complaining. Possibly just my paranoia playing tricks on me but still. It's exhausting constantly being prepared for a fight just to light up. The weight loss is going to take a back seat for now. Although I'm not eating a lot, really. I actually should start eating more because I never have anything for breakfast besides a bloody Up & Go drink and I'm getting so sick of them. The thing is though, I feel really sick if I have anything solid so early in the morning. I think I just need to get in the habit but still, it's not the nicest feeling to be nauseous.

Edit - 1:14am (yikes): How poetic to come back to this thing now - this diary is now officially 10 years old!!!

12:46 a.m. - 2013-08-24